Just....stop.

I've decided that I have to do this...I may hurt feelings of some but it has to be said.

Some of you know this some of you don't but I -like many others unfortunately- have been a victim of dating/domestic violence from the ages of 15-17. It was never physically abusive but if I had stayed in the relationship it would've become physical. For me the abuse I suffered was verbal, emotional/mental, I was with someone who was completely different when we first started dating - nice, caring, a little wacky but someone who I enjoyed spending my time with.

After the first year of being together however...things started to change. He CHOSE to become homeless and CHOSE to become involved in drugs. I also noticed that he had underlying mental disorders, well I kinda knew about them beforehand but, they were deeper than I suspected. I had wanted to break up with him for quite sometime but was afraid to do so- first off because of what he could do to me, friends would choose sides (which they did) and what I was most afraid of was what he would do to himself. I finally broke up with him shortly before my senior year of high school and it took its toll on me because I had lost people who I THOUGHT were my friends and lost contact with those who really were my friends because of him and because I decided to stay with him. The year after breaking up was the toughest, I became reclusive, gained a large amount of weight and became depressed. Lately I've been looking back - not dwelling- because a few of my friends now are involved in the same kind of relationship I had. I know what its like to have someone try to control you and hold stuff over your head and make things that aren't your fault SEEM like your fault because they can't look in the mirror themselves and don't want to deal with their own issues and want to play the victim. At the age we are now (most of us are in are mid to late twenties) we shouldn't have to deal with this and it needs to stop. If you feel trapped in a relationship GET OUT NOW, if its abusive- either it be verbally, physically, emotionally and even sexually GET OUT NOW! You have a support system that will help you get through the tough parts. NO ONE deserves to be treated like that. If you feel trapped and don't know how to end it TALK TO US! That's what friends are for after all!

I hope all of you who see this are appreciative and not defensive.

Must love books.

Recently at work an old co-worker came in and we shot the shit for awhile and she told me how funny I was and how I need to make a "manual'' on what I look for and how a potential mate should deal with me...So I've decided to do it.

Name: Winter Lee H. Scriven

Female, 27 years old, blue eyes, dark brown hair, 5'6 - who cares about weight. And I'm white.

Hobbies: Reading, writing, going to museums, arts and craft type things, buying things that I don't need but buy them because they have an owl on them, blogging, I like fotbal (soccer for you Americant's).

What I look for in a mate: A guy (Yes, I'm straight - contrary to popular belief- Sorry ladies) who can carry on a conversation, Has to be taller than me, Has to be around my age or older, Liberal (socially anyway...) Someone who likes having A LOT of books about history/the Holocaust around. I also generally date whitey. Someone who is abusive in ANY way.

What I DON'T look for in a mate: Arrogance, intolerance, bigotry, complete druggie (if you smoke weed and drink but not full blown alcoholic that's cool), Just don't be a tool.

Some of MY faults: Can be selfish at times, loud, straight forward- don't sugar coat a lot of things, VERY outspoken (sometimes I don't care who I offend), bad temper, Space cadet, I like my alone time so someone who is clingy would really get on my nerves.

What I expect out of a relationship: Look, I'm 27...I'm not looking for someone who is just looking for a 'fling'- its going to be a long term thing. I'm not into 'open' relationships if you're with me- be with me- not into threesomes nor am I polyamorous. I'm an introvert at heart so I do like to have 'me' time every once in awhile- nothing against you just how I am. You'll also have to put up with my craziness. As for potential marriage goes- I am not going to get married until everyone is able to get married, why should I be able to marry only because I'm straight?? And don't ask me to marry you right off the bat- it takes about a year and a half to get used to someone.

That's all I can think of...

Short Changing

I recently saw the documentary "Waiting for Superman"- for a second time- and it really pissed me off and saddened me. It also made me think about my time in grammar, junior high and high school and how I (and other children) were and ARE being shortchanged regarding education. For the most part I had good teachers throughout grammar school, My 4th/6th grade teacher (had the same guy for those two grades) specifically was extremely dedicated to his students. I also really liked my 3rd grade teacher but...this is me we're talking about so of course there's a few who I had/have problems with well, scratch that- had problems with the school.

Here's the story- in third grade I started to have problems with math, the teacher was spending too much time explaining stuff to me so there was a parent teacher conference and you know what happened in that conference? The school wasn't too concerned with my difficulties in math...they were more concerned with the fact that I had picked up my moms New Jersey accent (said 'warsh" instead of "wash" stuff like that). After which I was put into a speech class- nothing to help me with math. This set in motion a long time of being screwed over by the education system of this country. I was also put into what they called 'resource' classes in which I was with kids who were in the same grade as me yet...they could barely read. I had NO problem reading or with comprehension but the 'higher ups' at school were convinced I had problems with other things (which, like I stated before I DIDN'T). I'm not knocking kids who had difficulty reading but I DIDN'T BELONG THERE. During this time I was also in a small group of kids whose parents were divorced or separated and we had to hold a wand and "talk about our feelings" - I would of much rather had help with my academics...personally. Of course my parents fought with them (my mom did mostly) I think being in those classes did more harm then good. I felt like I was a less productive student- and I think the school wanted it that way. Also most of the staff couldn't pronounce my first OR last name -either called me 'Winter" or something else stupid like that.

Moving on to junior high...I can't tell you how many of my teachers at Laguna Middle School were shitty teachers. They either hated kids, or were just so burnt out that it was useless to them to even try. During the first week of school I was actually pulled from a 'mainstream' english class and put into a 'resource' class in which the teacher (I'm pulling no punches and naming names!) Mr. Kirby treated us like we were 5...no joke. He had us do assignments that were useless and didn't help with anything. The home economics teacher Miss Young...was more concerned with the stupid dress code they had there than treating her students with the slightest bit of respect, it was bull. One day I remember was when I was in class and had to bend over my desk, suddenly I felt something on my back I turn around and its her with a stupid ruler measuring how much of my midriff was showing. I didn't get a tap on the shoulder and told "Excuse me but I noticed you're showing a little bit more skin than you should, be sure to be aware I know it may seem like a silly rule to the students but its our rules." No...I got some high and mighty woman who obviously had control issues TOUCH ME UNWILLINGLY and talk down to me like an idiot. I ended up leaving the 8th grade because I got really depressed and got home schooled.

High School...

High school was probably the biggest crock of bull shit I've ever experienced HOWEVER...I attended two high schools- so my beef is with San Luis High. First off yet again I was put into 'resource' classes. My math teacher was so old she didn't realize she had dog shit on her shoe for three days straight ALSO she was so disliked by students (and probably by faculty) that no one told her about it. She was unclear about her teaching and didn't explain how to do things just expected us to know it. But my main problem was with Mr. Porter. This guy was the shittiest of the shittiest he was head of the special education department there and was the biggest tool. Again I was yanked from 'mainstream' classes BY HIM and put in classes where I was obviously smarter than most of the kids (not trying to rail on anyone but its the truth). He was insanely religious and often brought it into class (he was also part of the Christian group). He was teaching a 'history' class one semester and it was supposed to be about Russia and all this guy did was talk about how horrible Communists/Communism is and showed us slides of a trip he took there in 1986...but that's small in comparison to what happened next...I (a student) had to tell him (the teacher) WHAT COMMUNISM WAS! THEN HE TRIED TO ARGUE WITH ME ABOUT IT...Look sir, Both my parents fancied themselves Communists 'back in the day' AND I READ ABOUT IT A LOT- I also explained to him that what's on paper IS completely different that how it was/is applied in countries (such as Russia). We DIDN'T learn about the Czars, we DIDN'T learn about the people WE DIDN'T LEARN ANYTHING EXCEPT for how horrible it was there under "Communist rule". EVERY SINGLE CHILD who had classes with him WAS SHORT CHANGED in their EDUCATION. After this I was totally fed up with SLO High and then transferred over to Pacific Beach. A better decision couldn't have been made. The four teachers I had there Mr. Kirk, Mrs. Newman, Mrs. Jacobsen and Mr. Pearson EXCEPT THE PRINCIPLE MR. SAN FILLIPO WHO WAS A HUGE JERK AND DIDN'T RESPECT ANY OF THE STUDENTS AND WAS EXTREMELY RUDE TO THEM ANY CHANCE HE GOT!!! (Sorry but that had to be added) were SO dedicated to their students and connected with them, granted there were only about 60 students who attended but they deserve to be applauded for their efforts. But unfortunately I was so burnt out by being screwed by schools that I didn't apply myself the way I should of.

Now that I'm in college bad teachers are few and if there is a bad teacher I can AVOID him or her (most of the time). But I am still concerned about the education in this country, I have two younger siblings and I fear that they'll be short changed as well. First off I don't think elementary/junior high and high school teachers shouldn't be given tenure so quickly. We all know how long it takes professors to become tenured but some lower level teachers get it in as little as two years- and some (not all) get the attitude "Well, I'm tenured so I don't care if you learn anything or not." This is a HUGE problem. Also I have a problem with some teachers unions (yes me...the bleeding heart liberal has a problem with a union). The AFT or American Federation of Teachers is one union I have a problem with. They see a teacher as a teacher -no matter if that teacher is bad OR good. This is a problem...They're also so threatened by change (being able to fire teachers or only tenuring teachers who perform well) that they refuse to have dialog with many school districts. Tenure isn't something to be thrown around- You can rape nuns on the front lawn of your school and not get fired that's how set in stone it is.

I know not all teachers are shitty and I am ONE student who had many problems but I'm not the only one. Many students are being short changed in their educations, EVERY SINGLE CHILD IN THIS COUNTRY and around the world deserves AN EXCELLENT education. The more people who pay attention and get involved in not just yours or your child's or friends or whom ever's education the more this crisis (because it is) can be solved.

Marriage, love, relationships and Why I Hate Valentines Day.

I was going to make this post about how much I hate Valentines Day but I've decided to make it about all things love wise! Also I AM NOT signaling any one person out- so don't internalize it.

Even though I do in fact hate Valentines Day I have been sucked into it on occasion for instance - I used to buy my little brother and sister baskets filled with all the pink, red and white shit they sell but, I did it mainly because I like to make them happy and enjoy seeing them enjoy it. Anyway most know my stance on marriage - I think everyone should be allowed to get married (human wise that is). Gay marriage isn't going to make the sky fall, and religion needs to keep its nose out of business it has no part in, and for that reason I have myself made the decision not to get married until everyone else can- if that never happens then...whatever I'm not in a hurry. I'm also not one of these people who marks their first week together or second week or blah blah blah....who cares if you've been a couple for 72 hours. I also don't understand why some people get so clingy. As an introvert this really makes me uneasy...space and alone time can be a wonderful thing but if you have someone going "HEY! where you going? What you doing!?! Can I come?!?!" Look, everyone has their own shit to do and you can't be around that person all the time. To me it signals huge trust issues (duuuhh). Also if you're going to fight, fight on your own time. Don't go online and bitch each other out in front of everyone no one cares and no one wants to hear it, it makes you both look like idiots...and attention whores not to mention immature. Lastly, in almost every relationship the thought of children comes up. I have seen so many people throughout my adult life have kids that they don't deserve. Having children is NOT a relationship saver nor are they accessories. If you have a child to save a relationship you're an moron, its going to make things worse - trust me. Plus don't have a kid if you can't afford it...please. Be respectful of each other, don't be a constant victim, take some criticism and just keep calm in dark times no matter how hard it might be...that's my advice for the day.

When Shit Comes Home to Roost

As all know a horrible thing happened this past Saturday in Arizona. If you don't I suggest you crawl out from your sewer and turn on the news....with that being said I didn't make a post during or immediately following the incident because I really don't want this to be a slew of words mashed together (which I have a tendency to do) nor did I want it to be like one of my 'normal' rants and I had a lot of things going through my head that needed to be filtered - Who did it, Why did someone do it, HOW did it happen- pretty much everything everyone else was experiencing. As more information has come out people have begun to point fingers at who they think have blood on their hands. A sheriff has come out to say that Arizona has become a hot bed due to the Presidential election of 2008, immigration, gun control, and health reform...but none of these topics warrant the decision that was made by those who committed this act, normal people know this but as we all know over the past 2 years the political climate here has become very volatile.

I am not going to point my finger at any one person who I think might be at fault because lets face it, the only person directly at fault is the shooter and his suspected accomplices. BUT I do think some people who are in the public eye have a hand in fueling the fire that rested in the killers belly and yes I think one of those who did this is none other than Sarah Palin (the others being Glenn Beck, and Michelle Bachmann). For the past 2 years Obama has been in office these three in particular have been the voice for groups like the "tea party" and the "birther movement". Like I keep pointing out I don't want to sit here and play the blame game but its hard when you have people making pictures of districts that need to be "taken back" and the districts are represented by cross hairs...you know the ones you see when looking through an assault rifle, you also have this guy on TV with his chalk board who writes insane things on it (most of the time not making any sense at all) who cries because he "fears for his country". THEN you have this woman who has told her supporters things like "Be armed and dangerous" referring to an Obama administration cap and trade tax policy that limits greenhouse gases. These kinds of actions plant seeds inside people. But when asked about these damaging phrases they back track and hide behind an amendment that they know nothing about "I didn't mean it that way...it was a metaphor" I'm going to be straight forward and be mean by saying that I think the types of people who cling to every word these three (as well as others like them) say are less educated than others...and yes some are flat out bigoted buffoons.
I'm not just pointing the finger at the GOP and tea baggers...the democrats are just as guilty. Instead of trying to out wit these people they have fired back with some of the same rhetoric. BOTH parties should have nipped this bullshit in the bud ASAP. But they didn't...instead they chose to keep turning the dagger and making jabs. Then there's the media who has over sensationalized things over and over and over again most of the time making them seem a lot worse than they are. We need to STOP this. The Republicans need to come out to the public and denounce these people - so do the Democrats. The hippy part of me wants everyone to shut up and listen...and look around. Its true us liberals viciously attacked George Bush over and over again but look at what happened during his presidency - two wars, massive debt, restrictive on social issues (gay rights, stem cell research etc). Obama isn't perfect -far from it- but he is trying to make this country work. He isn't a Muslim (and so what if he was), wasn't born in Kenya, and he isn't a Socialist NOR a Nazi. He is a human being like all of us. Its time we started to act like it. WE need to take a step back and look at ourselves. My mom says that my generation has back tracked on everything her generation did during the 60's and 70's and I'm starting to believe her. The youth of this country has a lot of swing to it IF we get our shit together and WE have to inhabit this world WE have to work and live with all types of people some good, some bad. It doesn't seem like it but I try to show everyone with respect (you should always treat the garbage man the same way you would treat the Queen of England) and I know it gets hard but lets try to change this.

What ever happened to the classy (American) girl?

First things first...I haven't been on this thing for quite sometime, like most people I have fallen prey to the sick and twisted world that is Facebook BUT...Facebook has a word limit so I can't go on my usual rants ( I have to make them short rants). ANYWAY...I have decided to use this so I can go on my usual rants (screw making notes on FB).

This post mainly deals with a problem that has been pestering me for quite sometime - the decline of the classy girl.

The classy girl was an essential figure in society for years and years (centuries even) but her habitat is unfourtunatly being destroyed by the ever present overly tan, shitty make up wearing, spitting in face, loudmouth reality star common trash (scientific name Trashious New Jersious). The classy girl knows how to act in all situations - although as we all know she has had to change certain things (humor/clothes etc) as time itself has changed but she has always remained good natured. She uses her tact and witt instead of fists and battles numbskulls with the education she has recieved not the spit in her mouth. She speaks in full sentences not in some mutant form of ebonics. My question is WHY have we let this divine woman fall prey to the infectious piles of human waste that inhabit shows like "Jersey Shore" "Jersylicious" and "Bad Girls Club" (there are more but these are the main offenders). I thought "The Simple Life" with Paris Hilton was bad...My goodness what has happened?!
Look, as most know I am a huge advocate of women's rights and I don't think a woman belongs in the kitchen...you know barefoot and pregnant...but when people speak of 'class' we tend to think of a woman who is elegant and put together not the piece of trash that inhabit our TVs. I mean when did it become the norm to spit on each other? Wear horrible looking clothes that show waaaaaay more than we need to see? Wear make up that makes you look like a whore?? AND WHY ARE THESE FLOOZIES SO POPULAR?? I understand its like a car crash - its messed up but you can't take your eyes off it. But those of us girls who have tact and CLASS need to stick together and stick up for each other not the whores that make ALL women look bad.

Its been a long long long time....

Alright so I ignored this thing for months and months, one thing is that I got addicted to facebook- for some unknown reason : / I am truly sorry if anyone really paid attention to this and was bummed that I didn't post anything new. I PROMISE that I will make a concious effort to post on a regular basis.

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What if it was YOUR daughter?

I've decided to take a break from my normal political rants and concentrate on the whole Roman Polanski mess.

Its safe to say that I'm a little more than baffled that prominent directors are supporting Polanski. What? Why? Yeah I get the whole "we directors have to stick together" and that he's made some pretty good films (my personal favorite The Pianist) and it doesn't matter that it's been some 30+ years since it happened and that the victim wants to get on with her life, what DOES matter however, is that he gave a 13-year-old Quaaludes, raped her THEN fled the country because a plea deal wasn't going to go through! Time doesn't heal all wounds. Like I stated earlier so the fuck what if he's an Oscar winner and made some good flicks...he abused/violated someone. My advice to all those who allegedly signed a petition to pardon Polanski...what if it was YOUR daughter? Would you feel the same? My guess is probably not.

I've been ignoring you lately...I apologize.

I was out until like 2 (in the AM) with Scottish rugby players...I'm tired.

...Has anyone else been noticing that Glenn Beck is on the verge of a major nervous breakdown? Or late onset of some form of paranoia? (but probably already has that...he is a Mormon for christs sake)

Probably both. In any case...good riddance.

OH....man...

So, I just got back from a town hall meeting that our Rep. Lois Capps had and Jesus Christ...what the FUCK is the matter with people? I mean it was quiet...some of it ( I would say it was better than the earlier town hall meetings) But it was interesting all those who oppose the bill and think Obama is a Socialist AND Nazi (news flash - DIFFERENT ideologies!! wait that's a big and hard to pronounce word! ) and blah blah blah sat together (how adorable!) They all left at the same time (so they could have ample time to get their cute little bullshit signs out of their cars). I shushed some people and towards the end some guy sat in my row talking to himself saying "American has the best health care" (shall I laugh now, or later?) and then he put his face in his hands proceeded to beat his head with fists...whatever dude, go read a book will you? If you can even read. But by far the most exciting event happened after the meeting some tall boisterous nut job started to flap his lips about how this is a democracy and how he has the right to ''express'' himself...time out...you know part of a democracy is to listen to other people as well and he didn't let that happen he just kept going on and on about how the bill is socialism and how we live in the United States of America (I know where I am moron, I can even name the state I live in!!) and how I should go to Canada and how people from Canada come here to get health care, well that's bull. People here GO THERE for care, you know where they also go wing nut? MEXICO! ARRRRRIBA! OLAY!! Anyway, I started to tell him my father is a Canadian and half my family lives there and also my grandmother wouldn't of lived as long as she had WITHOUT socialized medicine and how she never dreamed of coming here for care and go everything she needed medically. But the guy would not shut up! He just kept talking, er yelling, over my mom and I not really letting us get a word in edge wise (although my mom got some punches in and he shut up after each one of them) by that time I had completely LOST it and unfortunately I have yet to cut the drama, yelling and swearing down and just started to yell and kinda made a loon out of my self. My saving grace - and maybe this is my superiority complex talking - I am a 25 year old woman who is smarter than the average bear and I know that and am proud of how I was raised and how I think. What I need to do however, is work on not getting so emotional and just use my intellect to prove how stupid, racist, and how uneducated these people are. I mean com'on how many freakin' times does the president and others who support this bill have to explain that it isn't socialism, it won't bankrupt the country etc etc. sigh...sometimes I really do want to move to Canada or to a Euro country so I can just go out, sit at a cafe and not have some moron behind me spewing complete and utter bullshit about something they know nothing about and don't want to learn about.

Joke Time!!

what is Osama Bin Laden's favorite football team?


The New York Jets.

I know I've been ignoring this thing lately...school started and boy is it EVER going to be a fun semester!! Why?

1) budget cuts - 100+ classes have been cancelled - business department took the biggest hit.
2) Tuition went up - used to be 20$ a unit (most classes are 3-4 units) to 26$ a unit
3) MY FUCKING MATH BOOK IS $140 USED!!! ARRRRRRRG!!

...Then again, it could be worse...I know my tuition is nothing compared to most.

Don't make me regret things...please?

As I stated earlier in the week I am rather disgusted by those who were...are making fools of themselves by barking, screaming and yelling at town halls regarding a gov't run health care plan. I was disgruntled on how the GOP was spreading horrible rumors about what would happen if the gov't were to control health care ( ''death panels'', Socialism ) when in fact medicare is run by the gov't. But I now find myself getting disgruntled with the Democrats, AND Obama. Look, I'm glad he's our president, his heart is in the right place and wants whats best for the U.S. BUT, this constant backing down needs to stop. COME ON DUDE! I know the GOP may seem scary but their bark is worse than their bite. People in this country need a leader who will stand up to people, not cower to them (ESPECIALLY the GOP). I haven't lost hope in you and don't regret my vote...YET.

OH! Another 'Thank you' to our Governor Arnold Swatz..Schwarzenegger (or however you spell that douches name) for fucking up not only HIV/AIDS programs across the state but ALSO the education system...THAAAAAAAANKS!!

When a Society Fails.

I've been trying my best to get my thoughts together and get a grasp on whats been happening regarding health care in this country and the constant bashing of Obama and how he's running the country. Even going as far as to write a few drafts on what I wanted to say (wasted a few pieces of paper doing it...) I have found myself getting very very very irritated by how some in this country have been acting. First I would like to address this whole "Obama is a Socialist/Nazi/Communist/Fascist/...who cares". I am 99.9% sure that the people who claim that he is one of those, if asked, couldn't explain them...idiots have a hard time defining different ''isms'' and other large words. Yes that's right, I called you IDIOTS because you are. Make up your minds, is he a commie? Nazi? because he can't be both, not to mention their spelling is atrocious (saw a guy with a sign that said "Obama is a Socilist"). Now, what makes Obama a socialist? Because he thinks all Americans should have access to affordable/good health care? What an evil evil man! How dare he treat people with compassion, that scum! Also, this whole ''death panel'' thing needs to stop, he isn't going to go out and kill anyone. This isn't Nazi Germany, so a euthanasia program is out of the question not to mention extremely outlandish and a scare tactic - Got it Sarah? Good, now shut your fucking mouth before you embarrass yourself further. Moving on, now what about those who are attending these town hall meetings only to yell and start fights with senators and such? Idiots as well. I saw one person stand up and talk about how the government needs to stay out of medicare. WHAT?? News flash moron Medicare is government run!! And if I can stay it works pretty well. Look, even though I think Obama is putting too many things on his plate at the moment- his heart is in a good place. Every citizen deserves health care and its the governments place to provide it to its people. France, Germany, England, Sweden, Netherlands, Canada and other countries all have single payer health care systems...yes their taxes are higher but I think the good out weighs the ''bad''.
My other beef is with the GOP- naturally. During the election and before the inauguration the GOP said that it was "looking forward to bipartisanship", that went out the window real quick. I seriously think that some Republicans are so upset that Barack beat McCain that they will do everything and anything to make him look bad and fail at whatever he tries to do- health care debate presently. Rush Limbaugh (who is doing a fantastic job acting like Joseph Goebbels), Sarah Palin, and faux news (among others) are doing their best to spread scare tactics throughout the U.S. (ooohh Obama and the democrats are gonna take your guns!! booga booga booga!!) and it says a lot about those who choose to feed with them.

In closing I would like to say that I hope those who buy into these fictitious, outlandish and disgusting scare tactics grow a brain and come to realize that Obama isn't the boogey man and has no intention of killing your grandma, stealing your children and eat them. Calm down, read a fucking dictionary and most importantly...THINK, if you're still capable of that.

Oh...boy.

Went to my eldest brothers wedding yesterday, hopefully less stress now. Got a sister-in-law now. Yaaaay!

why?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bMUaca8wP9w

Why do they put people like this on TV??

This whole "birther" movement needs to stop...seriously. Even Ann Coulter has called them ''cranks''. Jesus Christ, if Ann Coulter is calling you crazy you must be fucking crazy.

I need a new...

Hand. The right to be specific, within the last week I have:

burnt it with a match that I wasn't paying attention to (index and thumb), cut it on a peach can (knuckles), had a cat attack it, cut it on a jar of mayo -(thumb...don't ask), got it stuck in metal cart at work (pinkie). Enough already.

Don't F**K with me!

As we all know I don't like to sugar coat things or idiots, in fact I often make people PAY for the stupid stuff they say and do.

One example happened during the far out summer of 2007 when I went with my dad, step-mom and younger siblings into that mystical land we call Canada to visit family.

After 10 days of non-stop Canadians and my little brothers constant complaining it was time to head back to the "golden state". All I wanted to do was get home, once on the little Canadair jet that would take me back home I settled into my seat which was a window one (yes!) I was all comfy with my pillow and getting my CD player out when this woman comes up looks at me, frowns and mutters under her breath ''but I wanted to sit by the window." I nearly told her to go tell someone who gives a shit but...said to my self ''You know what lady, you just made a very very very bad decision and now I'm going to make the next hour and a half of your life miserable". What did I do? Well, I made sure that when I 'slept' that my mouth was wide open and my horrible swamp breath went right to her nostrils (I didn't brush my teeth that day...maybe that's what led to my root canal? *shrug* ) I also laid the sickest farts throughout the flight and once we were allowed to leave the plane that woman flew off that damn aircraft so fast. I chuckled a small chuckle and told my dad and step-mom about the ordeal and they laughed too.

Moral of the story: Do be a pain in the ass...ever. Don't be a douche bag either...you aren't the only one in this world so just STOP, life is too short to be an asshole.

Fuck Arnold

So my mom just lost her job because our fuck-up of a governor cut HIV/AIDS funding. So, no HIV tests, counseling, etc etc.

Thanks asshole. I hope you enjoy having blood on your hands.

LET THE RACE BEGIN!

I'm going to campaign (in anyway I can) and endorse Mr. Gavin Newsom for CA governor.

My manager doesn't know the meaning of "manager".

...Its time to get the ol' resume out to merchants!

PICK UP AFTER YOUR DOG!!!

So I've just realized that my neighbors across the street leave their garage door open at night so their dog can shit all over my lawn as well as dig in it (probably does it to others). well I refuse to pick it up and I'm in the process of writing them a letter about how if they're too lazy to look after their pets then they shouldn't have any.

idiots.

I've been finding my self becoming more and more involved with gay rights. For one I think it has the potential of being my generations civil rights movement, and after seeing Cleve Jones speak it made me want to do more for the movement - which I will, maybe even make it to Washington D.C. in October to march for equal rights.

Also I've started taking Lorazepam at night in order to sleep. weeeeee....ugh, I feel like I'm losing my mind sometimes.

Yay for therapy!

I've been taking all this family drama really hard (crying, sleeping more as well as losing sleep, more agitated than usual, eating out of control- and its not good food either) so hard in fact my ass is going back into therapy and I'll probably have to either up my dosage of anti-depressants OR switch. FUN!

I've said it once I'll say it again...

I hate money, I hate what it does to people, I hate how people will step over anyone to get it. Bullshit.

What part of "No Soliciting" don't you understand??

The house I moved to has thar sign- I've been there for 2 weeks, have already had 3 people knock on the door trying to sell me shit. I swear, if Mormons come by- ITS ON like Donkey Kong!

I'm extremely stressed and sad...insomnia, binge eating, upset stomach...

good times.

My New Hero

I have decided to pick a new hero, and the wiener is.....

Kim Jong Il of North Korea, why? Here are a few reasons.

1) He travels in a ARMORED train (Cold War status) has lobsters airlifted and eats them with silver chopsticks - meanwhile, North Koreans are starving.
2) Thinks he is GOD. He and his fathers birthdays are national holidays. If you don't celebrate - DEATH.
3) Had a stroke but didn't let it slow him down.
4) Constantly threatens the US of nuclear war, when he can barely get his rockets off the ground.
5) Has those ever popular "Commie" parades.
6) Instead of having cars on the streets there's tanks.

So if you haven't noticed already, I am being quite facetious. Kim Jong Il is nucking futs- I laugh every time this douche threatens us or anyone else (but for the most part all threats have been solely ours and ours alone) Yeah he has nukes and the son of a bitch is probably crazy enough to use one....and I'm the last person to chant "USA USA USA" but if he sets off a rocket towards Hawaii (like hes planning) he's in for a world of hurt. I also laugh when I see him because I always think of the movie Team America. "I'm so....ROANRY!"

I've been watching the show "I'm a celebrity- get me outta here" (for reasons unknown...maybe out of boredom and don't have school to worry about.) and I think Spencer Pratt has Narcissistic personality disorder.

HA!

http://finance.yahoo.com/news/Best-Places-to-Live-usnews-15476164.html?.v=1

Number 8 - my home town...

"California Polytechnic State University infuses the community with intellectual energy." AHAHAHAHAHAHA yeah, by making sure the bars don't go out of business. Rent/house prices are really high - but hey, its California what do you want?

Abortion debate reborn

As we all know a doctor who performed third trimester abortions was shot and killed IN CHURCH last week, and now all the anti-abortion advocates/activists are coming out of the wood work. As most know I support a woman's choice to have an abortion - big deal, but I also hate the term "pro-life" let me elaborate... I think people in general (except those who don't take medication for their VARIOUS mental illnesses) are pro-life. I support a woman's right to choose what she thinks is right for HER OWN BODY, but I don't support a woman using abortion as a form of birth control and if you decide in your 4th, 5th, 6th + month you don't want to carry to term and want an abortion when your life or the fetuses isn't threatened - tough shit you had ample time to decide and adoption is a great option.

But there is one thing that REALLY gets under my skin...which is the men that I have seen on TV who are anti-abortion "activists". I know we live in America and people have the freedom to choose what they do/don't support and that's really cute but com'on. Men will never understand the pressures women face around the world - now I'm not saying women are better or anything like that but they don't have a uterus, they've never been told by the media what their body should look like, they've never been forbidden to vote, work etc etc. Simple fact is, is that they just won't and never will understand (just like women will never know what its like to piss standing up - unless...) So my advice to men who are anti-abortion - don't go on TV leave it up to your sheltered, submissive wives who couldn't argue their way out of a goddamn episode of Hannah Montana.

PS. I was "kinda" teaching my younger siblings how to light things on fire with a magnifying glass and in the process set my own pants on fire and burnt my big toe. I guess that's what you get for trying to teach a 8 and 3 year old how to be arsonists.

I want a baby owl.

SHAME SHAME SHAME

It's a sad, sad, sad day in California.

The supreme court decided to go along with prejudice and bigotry by upholding Prop. 8, yeah I understand it got the majority of the vote but it doesn't matter...ITS FLAT OUT DISCRIMINATION...pure and simple. How DARE people try and control how others live. This all boils down to religion which is asinine (Church and state are supposed to be separate remember??)

Everyone who voted "yes" on prop.8 should be ashamed of themselves and really need to take a good look at themselves in the mirror, but they're probably too self righteous to care.

congratulate yourselves, you've taken away the rights of numerous people in this state who have done nothing wrong, you've keep them down as second class citizens and made them feel less then wanted. They pay taxes, have jobs, have families and support this country just like you do but just because they're different and don't go by what a religious book says you strip them of their rights. How dare you!! I hope god smites you, and Jesus would be appalled that such bigots claim to follow him.

Also, think of all the revenue the state of Cali would've gotten from all new marriages. But of course you don't care because homosexuals are sub-human right?
Yeah, well let me tell you people something, karma is a bitch and we of the straight and gay communities that are not bigots won't and WILL not let you keep anyone down for bullshit reasons. Homosexuals ARE HUMAN BEINGS who deserve as much rights as anyone else they are not sexual deviants, or perverts who go about molesting little kids or spread disease.

And if you're offended by me calling you "bigots" well, sorry to say (actually I'm not sorry at all) but YOU ARE intolerant, self righteous bigots.

Why do news stations continue to give Dick "Vampire" Cheney, Rush "Oxy-Contin" Limbaugh, and Ann "the Cunt" Coulter air time? Why?!?!

I know that I have been ignoring this lately but I've been dealing with family matters...namely those that have to deal with a certain family members upcoming and very stressful wedding...that shouldn't be happening in the first place and feelings are getting hurt over it - but that's my personal opinion. Out of respect I'm not going to spill the beans entirely, but I will say this....fuck money, it causes too many problems.

There I said it.

I'll get back into ranting in a couple days maybe.

Political Rant Week...Contiuned.

Topic - Foreign Policy/ National Security.

note: this will most likely become a two-part rant....National Security will be done tomorrow

Okie dokie. Lets get this party started.

So as we all remember foreign policy under the Bush Admin. was non-existent (mainly due to his and others assholism and insistent childish actions towards "the axis of evil" - think kids in a sandbox arguing over a toy) ANYWAY, during and after those 8 unfortunate years we lost friends and gained some....more enemies. Also those still claiming to be our allies were none the less fed up with dealing with a swaggering-"tough" talkin' Texan (although he was born in New Haven Connecticut) and some bald fat Vampire whose face almost broke if he smiled. So, When Barack Hussein Obama took office it was time for damage control and unlike his predecessor he decided to TALK directly to people instead of talking shit about them from afar. Boy, did the GOP and other right-wingers take this badly. So why is the right so pissed about this? Well for one reason Obama is "negotiating with terrorists"....TIME OUT. Do these people even know the meaning of terrorism? Probably not because if they had then they would know that STARTING A USELESS FUCKING WAR IS TERRORISM. But who wants to read a dictionary when its easier to drop bombs, invade their homes, and kill them??? Obama, unlike Bush/Cheney/Rumsfeld and others is HUMAN and treats others as humans as well, But, do people like the president of Iran, Lil' Kim of North Korea, that guy in Syria, VIVA LA REVOLUCIAN FIDEL CUBA and the ever popular Taliban deserve to be treated like humans? Eh, maybe not (in my humble opinion) but Obama HAS A JOB TO DO - and one of those includes protecting this country and its people.... if that means trying to negotiate or set up talks with those above mentioned countries/leaders...so be it. Look, we ALL have to share this planet and there's always going to be disagreements among nations and people but if we show some ounce of respect and don't make open threats I think everyone has a chance to live in somewhat peace. It won't change over night and most likely never end with some (mainly those who have MAJOR chemical imbalances in the cranium...AHEM...Lil' Kim Jong Il) Republicans, Democrats, Independents, Libertarians, Conservatives, Liberals, Commies, Socialists, Muslims, Jews, Christians, Agnostics, Atheists, Black, White, Asian, Pacific Islander, Arab and many more WE...yes WE have an awful lot to do in regards on how this place ends up, I think most will try and help but some negative Nancy's will always have to put their two cents in and if they do...Then they don't deserve to have a place mat set for them at the dinner table.

Enragement

So I was going to do my "Political Rant Week" thing on uh, Foreign Policy and National Security but decided against it after I watched Keith Olbermann's "Worst Person in the World" segment. Now, I am so fucking pissed at how these two women got elected - Michele Bachmann from Minnesoda and Virginia Foxx from NC.

Both of these women should BE ASHAMED OF THEMSELVES, especially Foxx. I am more angry over what Foxx said, because lets face it, for those of you who have heard Bachmann speak you probably say the same thing I say to my self which is "We let this woman operate a moving vehicle? AND VOTE?? ohhh mmman!!" *forehead slap*. Bachmann is just clueless and is a dimwitted bimbo who just lets her mouth spew out rancid diarreah with corn. As for Foxx, I wasn't that familiar with her but after hearing what she said on the house floor yesterday I was appauled. Here's the video of her >

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UFAa5aet0CI

As far as I'm concerned this lady should either apologize and VOTE for the Hate Crimes Act or resign. HOW DARE she be that insensitive ESPECIALLY when the mother of the victim is right there!!!! I encourage all to either call or e-mail her about how insensitive she is and how out of touch she is and that she should probably get her fucking facts straight before she spews intolerance.

Thank you, have a nice day.

Political Rant Week...Contiuned.

Alright, even though I've been ignoring my rant fest ( I wasn't in the mood...too many things were going on) I'm still going to write some stuff. I'll probably start up again tomorrow with human rights or something...maybe tackle abortion. Meh, we'll see.

I think the cut on my finger is infected. :/

Political Rant Week

Technically Day #5, but I forgot to do this thing yesterday. So, I'll say its...
Day #4

Topic: Gun Control

I have a few bones to pick with this issue. Allow me to be stereotypical for a moment by saying as a bleeding heart liberal - I completely agree with having restrictions on guns -i.e. how long it takes to get them, who can and can't have them and what kinds are sold.

It made me laugh when after Obama was elected people where so fucking concerned about their precious guns that they wen't out to buy more fearing that they wouldn't be able to get them when Obama took the Oath of Office. What the hell is wrong with people? He isn't going to take ANY ONES guns away - unless you're a maniac, mental case, criminal, or just plain looney. If you PAY ATTENTION you will find that he wants to BAN ASSAULT RIFLES (think AK-47s) because NO ONE should have access to those unless you're a avid/serious gun collector or are in the military, also will make it a crime to carry them onto school campuses. I mean come on, no president (unless they were more liberal than I am - scary thought) would take away any ones guns.

Look, I'm all for the "right to bear arms" even though that was put in the constitution when we were having to protect our newly formed country from Britain and were going through a revolution - things we aren't going through currently- but anyway if you need an assault rifle to hunt you're an idiot. If you have a gun in your house....PLEASE lock it up so little kids or ANY kid for that matter, can't get to it. Lastly, guns aren't toys, and if you right wing wackos are more concerned about whats going to happen to your guns then many other things that are WAY more important (health care, economy) well then, you don't deserve to have the right to have a voice in such matters. Sorry.

Political Rant Week

Day #3
Topic: LGBT rights, and why they deserve them.


Today I'm going to start touching on various human rights issues...and you better believe I'm going to talk more about it! Anyway, as most know I live in California - one of the most liberal states (sometimes), and most know about the Proposition that was unfortunately passed in November.

Prop. 8 (which banned same-sex marriage) passed by 53% (or somewhere in there). During the campaign I was VERY tempted to go around my neighborhood and tear down all the "Yes on 8" signs. What right do people have to take away rights of another? Interracial marriages were once banned but that got turned over because it was UNCONSTITUTIONAL - which is what the California Supreme Court ruled in this- so why was it even on the ballot if the CA SC declared it so? I'll tell you why - and be warned I might offend :)

It was on the ballot because these right wing nut cases are trying to control how OTHER PEOPLE LIVE THEIR LIVES - YET again. How does two women or two men affect their lives? Are they so paranoid that if it passed their spouses would automatically turn gay?!?! OH NO!!! or - Heaven forbid- their children would....turn gay? OHHHHH NOOOO!!! Because homosexuals are sexual deviants who go about raping, and converting your little Billy into something FAB-U-LOUS *snaps fingers* well that's part of it...they're afraid and paranoid. Another part has to do with what a FICTITIOUS BOOK says - (and for the record the bible only talked about gay men...never says anything about Lesbians - YOU GO FOR IT GIRLS!!!) see, this is why they separated church and state because shit like this happens and its all fun and games until someone gets hurt.

The United States prides its self as being a "free" nation and how people get to live freely - get to pick what schools they go to, colleges, who they like - fall in love with, marry, but if you're gay well you're shit out of luck because of what some evangelical morons have to say.

After prop. 8 was passed I was shocked and extremely angry, HOW DARE the religious right or anybody tell ANYONE who they can and can't marry or love. It's sickening. They should be ashamed of themselves- FOR SHAME. They go about preaching love and acceptance yet, are so fucking judgemental towards people they know NOTHING about. Hopefully within the next couple of months the CA Supreme Court will rule ONCE AGAIN that it is unconstitutional to bar homosexuals from marrying.

Oh...not trying to hype myself up but... http://twitter.com/CzechCeska

Political Rant Week

Day #2

Topic - Taxes, Tea Parties, and Republicans...oh my!

Like yesterday I'm going to start off saying I know taxes aren't fun, they aren't made to be fun...but we have to do it...unless you like jail.

I was going to write a whole sch peal about how the rich should pay more taxes and the middle/lower classes should pay less...like Billie Jean said "FAIR IS FAIR!!!" anyway...I was like 90+ degrees today and my brain in kinda on auto pilot so all I'm going to say is this...

If you are wealthy and complain about the taxes you pay... you SHOULD pay more, and if you don't think you should well then, you don't have to drive on the streets, have your children go to our schools, you don't have to hike, camp in our parks, if you have a fire you don't HAVE to call the fire department, If a loved one needs medical assistance you don't have to go to our hospitals or call the paramedics, if your house is broken into you don't have to call the cops...SO QUIT YOUR BITCHING AND DO YOUR PART!!

Political Rant Week

Day #1
Topic: Socialism is fun!

Before I get into how much I hate the GOP right now I would first like to say that I DO NOT dislike ALL Republicans, Libertarians etc etc - I know that the few "bad apples" don't speak for everyone but they DO damage the ones who aren't complete douche bags.

Moving on. I've decided to do a whole week full of rants mainly because it helps me calm down - so I don't blow up at someone- and also I've come in contact with more idiots than I would like to, and am tired of people (mainly the right) blowing things out of proportion.
What I would first like to touch is the whole "Obama is a Socialist....Watch out!!!" thing. This all started when Joe the "Plummer" asked a question about Obamas tax plan during his campaign , "he wants to spread the wealth" McCain and other Republicans ran with this. "HE'S A SOCIALIST!!!" and since hes a socialist, he must like communist too right? and of course Obama had to defend himself, at this time I was thinking...Yeah, and? See, I highly doubt that McCain and other GOP members even know the difference between Socialism and communism, buuut it doesn't matter because they're both BAD!!! BAH! Bullshit. Look at most of Europe - especially Scandinavia and the Netherlands - they pretty much run on Socialist based Gov'ts (i.e. everyone gets health care, free daycare, both parents receive time off when having a child) and that's bad why?? don't all people deserve these things?? The gov't has a DUTY to make sure ALL its citizens are taken care of. People have no need to be afraid of Socialism - Communist...that's another story. So in closing, I do think that Obama is somewhat of a Socialist in that he thinks everyone, rich, poor, middle class deserves free health care etc etc. He has already proven that his is willing to work with everyone to get these things in motion as well.

Tomorrow I tackle every ones favorite...TAXES!!!

Now Liverpool F.C. is out of the UEFA Champions League...Beaten by Chelsea FC again.

goddamn.

Oh well, there's always next year.

I am so over mathematics.

Liverpool is out of the UEFA Champions League...

....assholes.

Wait, no they aren't...They just let Chelsea F.C. beat them...WHEN THEY'VE BEEN ON A WINNING STREAK FOR WEEKS!!!!AND THEY LET SOMEONE BEAT THEM NOW?!?!?!

ARRRRRRRRRG!

Someone told me that I'm mean spirited.

YEEEEEES!!!

....I finally did it yesterday.

I made it to .....25....

hard to believe that a decade ago I was a snot-nosed-pimple infested teenager. BAH!

I interested whats going to happen when North Korea shoots off their "satellite" next week.

Boy, did Aston Villa FC get their asses handed to them by Liverpool. 5-0.

YAY!

I found out yesterday that my ex-boyfriend (the one who went kinda insane, got into drugs, went to prison for beating someone up) is working at a local...sandwich place.

I don't feel like I thought I would, which is kinda weird. My co-worker, who I've known since high school, told me he ran into him. He's in a serious relationship (could be married, I don't really know) and she's pregnant, and he wants to become an engineer of some sort. I was expecting my self to roll my eyes, say something not nice and get upset over it...but I'm not. I was also once concerned about what would happen if we ran into each other...but I'm not. I can honestly say I'm glad he's in a happier place in life and is continuing steps in order to better himself and his g.f / family. As rocky and disastrous as our relationship was and how hurt the both of us were (took me a looong time to get over it - and I had the ''nurse curse'' where I would try to fix him...didn't work...also did it with a previous relationship) all I ever wanted was him to be happy with life (he had a long hard run for a while) I also have and will have a soft spot for him - because I know what he can do and how smart he is, BUT, I am in no way shape or form condoning how we treated each other while we were together- got hairy between us...emotionally- and I'm almost certain it would've gotten to a physical point if we stayed with each other. So it's safe to say that I've let bygones be bygones in this case which I though I WOULD NEVER do, I just hope he feels the same. But if he doesn't that's OK.

getting older and more mature is weird.

Why do I continue to watch stupid shows?

Its Saturday, which means....stupid TV shows are on (but aren't they always?) anyway, I stumble across a show called "bridezillas". The name should be enough but goddamn, the women they have on this fucking show.

First episode I watched a bride-to-be wanted a grooms cake that looked like a vagina...WHY would ANYONE want a cake that looks like a vagina at their wedding? Just think of the people who ended up going to the thing. "Oh wow, a vagina cake...how nice she must really love her man!!" goddamn. THEN there was this CRAZY woman who cried her eyes out because her fiance (who she was previously married to, got divorced and are now getting married again) didn't want to travel first class to fucking Bora Bora (two first class tickets round trip would of cost 18,000 buck-a-roos) and at her rehearsal dinner her father gave a cake to another family member because it was her birthday and this bitch flipped out "THIS IS MY DAY!!! HOW DARE YOU GIVE HER A CAKE ON MY DAY!!" then proceeds to grab a huge piece of cake and shoves it in her fathers face. I could only handle those two. I would NEVER dream of treating my family or friends the way those women do. Hopefully they see themselves on TV and get HEAVILY medicated or HEAVY DUTY therapy. They give women a bad name.

My new favorite movie...Watchmen

Awesome movie that compliments the novel well, a few changes but, it was damn near close to the book...which is probably why it was 2hrs and 45min long. I didn't care though, I was never bored during it even though I was in the ever so uncomfortable front row. Not for little kids however ( A BOAT LOAD of violence - including some violence towards women - tons of blood and gore) sweet fighting scenes a really weird sex scene in a flying ship named "Archie" and a giant blue penis. The actors that were picked to be in the film did an awesome job -especially with Rorschach mine and a fan favorite. I might even have to go see it again!!

ONLY 24 SHOPPING DAYS LEFT UNTIL MY....BU BU BU BU BU BIIIRRRRRTHDAY!

Only draw back...I'm going to be 25 and 25 = OLD.

My computer chair attacked my foot....now my baby toe is all mangled.

It TOOK....THIRTY YEARS FOR THIS????

http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20090217/wl_nm/us_cambodia_rouge

So I saw a counselor on Tues and found out I'm not that far off from getting and Associates Degree/transferring and its pretty much set in stone that I'm going to California State San Francisco. All I have to do is complete some math/English classes and take a science class/lab...so...yeeeah.

So I made an appointment to see a counselor next Tuesday. Both of my parents and step-mom have convinced go to a school that is in CA (mainly because going out of state would cost more $$ and if I stay in Cali it would only be like $5,000 a year - plus by going to a SU I would most likely get a discount due to the fact that my dad teaches at one) - and thinking about going out of state after I get my BA which, is understandable. The one school I'm looking into is CSU San Francisco. I think I would like it there since I'm somewhat familiar with the area - like it there, know people....so I wouldn't be completely on my own, and it isn't that far from home. So we'll see what happens on Tuesday - If I end up signing a contract for enrollment or whatever.

Complaint Fest

One of my co-workers was late today and so my boss called wondering where she was well, she proceeds to inform him that she isn't coming in...ever because... everyone is "mean" to her and that she was "stressed all weekend just thinking about having to show up." WHAT? Look she is only there 4 days a week for 2hrs and NO ONE is mean to her, what needs to happen is that she needs to grow a goddamn spine. I mean come on...this is coming from a 40-year-old woman who got fired from her other job for not showing up (nor calling in sick from an eye infection or whatever...) so this was the ONLY job she had and has a 7 year old kid to take care of! JESUS man... and she quits because people are "mean".

Anyway, my boss then proceeds to ask her if she is going to give two weeks notice (like a responsible adult would do) and....*sigh* tells him "What do you think?" and proceeds to hang up on him.

I am so sick and tired of people who want nothing more than OTHERS to feel sorry for them. I mean this woman did nothing but complain about how she had to do this in order to pay her rent and how her ex husband did this to her and how this guy in Texas sent her a grand and blah blah blah blah, and gets an attitude when she can't take her co-workers telling her THAT SHE NEEDS TO DO HER FUCKING JOB!!! AND MAYBE IF SHE ACTED LIKE AN ADULT PEOPLE WOULDN'T HAVE TO CHEW HER OUT OR FIRE HER!!!!

Go throw your pity party near someone who gives a shit.

I really hope she stumbles across this and reads it.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090114/ap_on_re_us/hitler_cake



AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....THATS RIGHT! ....I Laugh in the parents direction. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

I want a house that looks like a Stave Church.

New year...same bullshit....


atleast the apocalypse is going to come in Dec. of 2012.....actually I hope it doesn't, I have too much stuff I want to do.

I am SO FUCKED financially right now.

http://www.eliewieselfoundation.org/madofffraudstatement.aspx

This makes me really really really...I mean REALLY sad/mad.

I want my wisdom teeth out.


www.watchmenmovie.com -YAY!

So...I'm most likely going to meet with a counselor before the '09 semester starts (tell me WHY I waited until my 4th semester to see one?) to set up a SEP (Student Educational Plan)...so I can transfer and leave this town. Don't get me wrong, I love this town - It's always going to be my home...but 24/25 years here is long enough. I'm most likely going to ask about a college that is near Philadelphia that gives out degrees in Holocaust/Genocide studies. I think it would be interesting to live on the east coast, only thing is that I don't know how I would deal with the winters. I'm also interested in UC Santa Cruz, (I have a 3. - Something GPA right now so, I think I'm pretty safe) ah, anyway...we'll see how it goes.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20081217/ap_on_fe_st/odd_hitler_cake



I'll comment on this later...

Later...... Dear Parents of "Adolf" : OK, first off, WHY would you name your kid Adolf Hitler? seriously...think about how the kid will be treated throughout life and a little less about your warped way of thinking. Also if you aren't a bigot then why does your daughters name include "Aryan Nation" in it??? Because it was "Cool" and "No one else has the name"...no shit, you know WHY people don't have that name, BECAUSE IT IS synonymous with GENOCIDE, Go to Germany and pull that white power BS and see how fast your ass lands in prison you dope. My advice....STOP REPRODUCING. We don't need anymore grade-A morons in this world, and honestly, I don't want to pay for YOUR kids court bills because they tried to hang some minority. As for the "mixed breeding" thing, well I'm sorry to say cupcake but, if people didn't "mix" then, well society would collapse. Also, one last thing....I'm sick of you white power/pride/trash idiots hiding behind the first amendment, it was made to PROTECT people, not to have you fuck heads abuse it by spreading hate and coming pretty close -if not- inciting violence. So in closing, you're an idiot and you should have you kids taken away for being an IDIOT. I say Good Day.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9D3u5UquSsE&feature=related


AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...
wait for it....waaaiiit.....
HAHAHA

The Iraqi journalist said "This is your farewell kiss, you dog!!" by the way.

I wonder if Bush realizes that throwing your shoe, showing someone the sole of your shoe or hitting someone with your shoe is a HUGE MEGA TON insult in the middle east. eh, probably not...still funny as shit. Of course it would've been A HELL of a lot better if the shoe actually HIT the jerkoff.

Complaints.

So it's no surprise that my main goal for going to college is to obtain a PhD in Holocaust and Genocide Studies as well as becoming a professor in the field. For the most part when I tell people this they usually go "Oh, that's interesting" because they get the point that I want to teach people about tolerance and how maybe future generations can prevent genocide(s) and I'm pretty involved in human rights. But the other day at work I told a woman (who is Jewish) about my career plans and she goes "WHY?? its so depressing, let it be in the past."...WHAT?? this coming from someone who more than likely had family members affected by the holocaust. I felt like telling her "Yeah well, I'm a manic depressive that may or may not have borderline personality disorder and that stuff gets my rocks off!!" Jesus man...Also she wouldn't listen to why I wanted to go into it "Its so depressing, so so depressing." Everyone is a critic.

Election '08 - Obama's Cabinet Noms.

So...I've been keeping up with what Obama is doing and who he is picking to be in his cabinet. All is fine and good, I have no complaints - for the most part. But, I do however have to complain about how some "Liberals" are attacking Obama on who he is choosing.

First off...some democrats are bitching because Obama isn't going to have the wealthy pay higher taxes or take on big oil right when he enters the white house, second they're also bitching about how he is picking "right" and "centrist" people to adorn his cabinet. Of course these are just some of the complaints, and OF COURSE I have to throw in my two cents.

...Look you idiots, first things first...OBAMA ISN'T PRESIDENT YET (remember inauguration is on JANUARY 20th - first day in office JANUARY 21st.) even though Bush is being a dip shit (what else is new) and is continuing to fuck up the country any way he can (the most recent victims - national parks) he is still the acting President, not Obama...sorry , SECONDLY...I think he is a little bit more concerned about the economy right now than anything else. THIRDLY, he isn't picking people by pulling their names out of a freakin' hat. The guy isn't an idiot and I'M SURE he and his advisers has it under control. AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST.....relax.... stop making nothing into something. Just be glad that he won and that things will (hopefully and most likely) be better in the months and years to come.

I got a B+ on my Philosophy test.

Today I was finishing up on some homework at my dads house, went to look up a word at Dictionary.com and it redirected me to ask Jeeves.com and I proceed to say:

"What the fuck was that?!?"

and what happens next...I hear a little voice come from the living room

"what the fuck was that?" and guess who it was...my two year old sister

unfortunately I couldn't hold my laughter, so of course she thought it was funny too and started to laugh.

I'm a bad influence.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z-kjM1asH-8


....I told you she's an idiot.

I've calmed down a bit since last time, which is good. I'm happy that the school semester is almost done with but I'm having a difficult time figuring out what to take next semester. I guess I should bite the bullet and just power through all the math and English courses (that I have yet to start...) I also had to take this personality test for Psychology and man...I guess I'm pretty neurotic (but of course knew that.)

More bitching.

I hate to get incredibly personal on this thing but, it is an online journal so...whatever. It may also turn into a rant so...just bear with me.

I am so sick and tired living with my mother and brother right now. Its been eating away at me for the past couple of weeks and has finally reached a boiling point - YAY! - well since my brother moved back into town. He has yet to find a job and of course this is stressing everyone out because there's more money leaving the house than coming in and we're all constantly at each others throats. My mom constantly has to bitch about something, and always seems to be in a bad mood and CONSTANTLY asks me "Did you take your meds?" and other stupid questions and my brother constantly has to argue about anything and everything, and as for me I of course get ganged up on and yelled at for "yelling for no reason" and get told to "calm down". No I'm not going to calm down, look, I pay my rent, I pay my bills, I go to work and I go to school. I have a fucking take home test due this Thursday and I'm not doing to well in my other class (this is turning into the worst semester I've had at school) and I'm stressed, so stressed in fact that I'm picking at my skin and scalp and have little scabs all over and I can't sleep to hot either. Also everyone always has to make snide comments THAT THEY KNOW WILL PISS ME OFF..why? is it fun to watch me freak out? to my family it is apparently. Yes, I should learn to control my anger and what not but give me some slack. I'm not the one whose father gave them $400 didn't give my mom 1 cent of it, spends it on a game, lays on the couch half the day, goes in the garage instead of looking for a fucking job so I can pull my weight in the household. Like last night, I ask my mom if she could help explain a question that was on my homework, she gives her input..... in a rude way and then tells me that I need to have better handwriting and if I took my meds....well thanks mom, I love it when people attack me when I ASK FOR FUCKING HELP. I've been looking for a better job so I can move out and get away from the constant bickering and attacks and just have some peace and quiet, I seriously feel like punching my self in the head or ramming my skull through someones window. I'm sorry if I'm playing victim but this is how it is. I get yelled at for the stupidest shit, get picked on (whether its joking or not, I don't care I'm sick of it) I'm made out to be the bad guy because I "fly off the handle". Don't get me wrong I love my family to death but like any other family we have our flaws, and hopefully they will work themselves out...if not, I'm screwed.

I have even more to add to the whole Prop. 8 debacle....



I am so sick and tired of hearing from the people who voted "yes" on prop 8 and how they were only "trying to protect marriage" and how its "not an attack on the gay lifestyle"...the fuck it isn't, if it isn't then why WAS IT ON THE BALLOT?? BAH! Also last night on Larry King (yes, I watch Larry King...so what??) they had some Bishop on that was talking about how if gays are allowed to get married then women won't be able to find husbands and men won't be able to find wives. WHAT?? NEWS FLASH JERK OFF...EVERYONE ISNT GAY! and the fact that I haven't been able to find a husband has nothing to do with "the gays" it has to do with the fact that I DONT NEED TO GET MARRIED YET. He also went on to say that marriage is becoming extinct. So what if it is?? This isn't the 1950's anymore, people don't HAVE to get married, they have the freedom and RIGHT to CHOOSE if they want.

Of course I can go on and on and on about this for hours, I'm going to close with this:

No one should be stripped of basic human rights, take a look see what discrimination has done to many societies. Some examples > Germany in the 30's and 40's, The states in the 60's...hate breeds fear and fear breeds actions.

RANT TIME FOR WINTER LEE- Election '08

I have a few choice words to the people who voted "yes" on Prop 8.


What the hell is the matter with you?? You right wing religious nuts are so concerned with how OTHER PEOPLE LIVE THEIR LIVES OR WHAT THEY DO IN THEIR LIVES. GIVE IT UP. How does a gay couple getting married affect YOUR life. How dare you think that you have a right to take away ANYONES rights. No matter how much you say "its not an attack on the gay lifestyle" it is, and you know it. You people took money from the MORMON CHURCH who is headquartered in UTAH....Utah HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH CALIFORNIA. Other religious organizations gave you people money when it has be proven so many times over that RELIGION AND POLITICS DON'T MIX!!!! All of the people who voted "Yes" on prop 8 should be ashamed of themselves. Oppression never lasts long and I hope that you people get what you deserve for stripping people of basic human rights, this country has come too far for you assholes to screw it up. We all deserve to have rights no matter if we're black, white, yellow, Christians, Jews, Muslims, Buddhists, gay, straight, bi, a voodoo priest, or a squid fisherman. You people are the downfall of society. Its not 1958 its 2008, wake up, stop trying to control how other people live. Take a look at yourselves for once and see how judgemental you really are. Once again for everyone who voted "yes" on prop 8, YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELVES.

OH MY GOD.

IT ACTUALLY HAPPENED.

I AM IN SHOCK AND AWE. A NEW DAWN FOR AMERICA.

On my way to school tonight I saw a guy dressed as "V" (think Guy Fawkes) from V for Vendetta holding up a sign saying "please vote"...it made my night.

I'm really getting tired of hearing about this "Joe the Plumber" guy. I swear the guy was a plant by the McCain campaign. He's a tax evader, doesn't agree with social security he thinks if Obama gets elected (knock on wood) Israel will cease to exist and the list goes on and on, not to mention he isn't smart...which has been the case with McCain/Palin supporters, and if you're offended by that

....tough, because you know it's true.

Went to the dentist today. Dentist was nicer than I would of been (there's no excuse for me not seeing a dentist, I had insurance until I was 23 for Christ's sake and didn't see one until now?!?!...baaaaad bad bad, someone should hit me on the nose with a newspaper!.) But, I'm somewhat mean spirited. Any woo

What I had done today:

x-rays

and....A root canal! which was actually rather painless (I got my self all worked up and nervous beforehand). Of course a filling and crown comes next...but I'm getting all my 7..or 8 or 9 fillings that I need.

I'm also going to get my wisdom teeth out too since I don't have enough room in my mouth for them. Good times.

RANT TIME FOR WINTER LEE- Election '08

OHHHH man the election is getting fun NOW!!!!

As some of you may know, I am quite liberal and more than often very biased so if you expect something different this time...tough, because my on-going beef with the McCain/Palin campaign is really starting to kick up. As you may also know McCain/Palin supporters are accusing Obama of being a Muslim/Arab with terrorist ties and just flat out being a terrorist.
"Why do you think Barack is a terrorist??"
"Well, look at his name...he went to an Islamic school!!!" these infectious piles of human waste have been so aggressive with this issue that even McCain is defending him. (one crazy old lady who looked like she had just left the local mental health center said she was afraid of him because she HEARD from right-wing propaganda that he was a Arab) GOP rallies are starting to look and sound like those that happened in Nuremberg during the 30's (that's right, I'm comparing Republican rallies to those that Hitler had) ...OK you douche bags ready for this?? Obama isn't a Muslim, in fact hes not even middle eastern...his father was from a small village in FUCKING KENYA and his mom was from KANSAS and was raised by his mother. Its true he lived in Indonesia and attended an Islamic school but here's some facts before you go "SEE!!! HE IS A MUSLIM!!!"...what's the dominate religion in Indonesia??....ISLAM (86% of the population in fact whereas 10% of the pop in Kenya is Muslim and %45 are Protestant followed by Roman Catholic at 33%). So what, he attended an Islamic school in a country that has a large Muslim population - Get over it. Anyway, and so the fuck what even if he was Arab/Muslim, that doesn't make him a bad person OR a terrorist. This is what has been getting my panties in a tissy lately and I KNEW it would happen...is all the swamp rats, neo- confederate soldiers who can't accept the fact that over A HUNDRED YEARS AGO THEY LOST, racist SOBs, evangelical christian whack jobs and all other lower forms of white people would come out of their shanties and start to spew their garbage. I hope for America's sake these people go out drinking and drive their ATVs and SUVs ( and snowmobiles - wink wink Sarah) off a cliff before November.

I still think Sarah Palin is a flippin' moron.

People who deny the holocaust really piss me off.

I'm too upset to type anything else.

RANT TIME FOR WINTER LEE

So whats got me going this time? McCain?? no...the democratic party?? no... puppies??? nope. Sarah Fucking Palin...YES!!!

I am so sick and tired of hearing how this woman is a "maverick" and how she "took on her own party to squash corruption" when in fact she's just as dangerous and corrupt as the rest of them! McCain chose her because he wants disgruntled Hillary supporters, so he picks one of the most conservative women (that he only talked to for 15 minutes a couple months ago) who basically has NO experience?!?! What the hell is the matter with this country??? Whats worse is that some of the disgruntled Hillary supporters are actually backing her!!! WHAT?? Palin, like I stated earlier is dangerous. She supports drilling in Alaska (Yes!! lets destroy an entire Eco-system!!!) against Gay/Lesbian rights, wants "creationism" taught in schools, is against abortion even in the cases of rape and incest (while she was mayor she made women who were raped pay for their own rape kits) her 17 year old daughter is pregnant (yes, abstinence only education works doesn't it!) and the father wrote on his myspace about how he doesn't want to be a father and how he doesn't want to get married at 18 and a lot of other stuff...so what is he doing? campaigning for his future mother in law!!! I hope the American people can see through her bullshit and be smart enough to vote for the obvious choice. If they don't and they buy into this whole Palin masquerade then, well I'm sorry but they don't deserve to vote. Is it worth being so angry that YOUR candidate didn't get the nomination that you are willing to screw this country over AGAIN??? is it? Think about it.

Another thing, Palin is part of "Feminists for Life"...look, I've said it before I'll say it again, people who are pro-choice aren't "anti-life" its not that you're against or for life its if you're for or against a woman being able to make decisions about her reproductive health, everyone is for life, its not like me or any other person who considers themselves pro-choice walk down the street see a pregnant woman and go "wow, she should have an abortion" because that would be, lets face it...fucked up. So this BS about having a group called "feminists for life" is a cop-out and gives women a bad name as far as I'm concerned. Every feminist is for life no matter what their political background may be and Palin is setting women back with her neo- 1950's house wife rhetoric.

We have a chance and a duty to turn this country around, to make it better to make it safer and prosperous so our children's children can live in a country they are proud to call home.

WINTER LEE NEEDS A ROOT CANAL!!!! YAAAAY!!!


....this is gonna suck.

So, the DNC is happening and I hope Hillary's speech put a bug in the ears of those who are so angry over her losing the primaries that they said they would vote for McCain. I mean come on!! imagine being so disgruntled that you are willing to fuck the entire country AGAIN because YOU didn't get your way. Plus, like I keep saying Michigan and Florida were warned by the Democratic Party...move up your primaries and your votes wouldn't count. They have no room or right to bitch, they should be upset with their states....not Obama or the Democratic Party. Idiots. This is part of the reason why the Democrats keep losing elections.

This is for all the people who voted for Bush...

GEE, THANKS!!!

I think the hummingbirds are mad at me because I haven't refilled their feeder in a week. But I have a cold so they're going to have to wait.

The Genocide Olympics start today.

....Jesus Christ.

http://www.edmontonsun.com/News/Canada/2008/07/31/6317416.html

Canadian on Canadian crime just ain't right.

Note to self:

If you win Lottery build house here >> http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/9/9d/Hintersee.jpg

So, I've been hankering to go to Europe right? Well, my mom was actually talking about going there w/ my brothers since we have a family friend that lives in Holland (HE'S A MAGICIAN!!) and since my mom has some $$$ from her fathers estate, it looks like I won't have to wait too long to get my buns on an aircraft...take some Ativan, pass out, and go play tourist.

I want to go to Europe. Maybe I can ask my parents to send me there when I graduate or something. HAHAHAHAHAHA.


Actually, it's not funny. I really do want to go.


OH and I want a tattoo of Doktor Schnabel Von Rom.

OH MAN...I got an awesome haircut today, feels nice to have short hair during the summer. Easy to manage/style.

I need to change shampoo/conditioner though. Biolage isn't cutting it anymore.

RANT TIME FOR WINTER LEE

I don't even laugh anymore when I see Bush say something stupid on the tele. This whole offshore drilling BS is getting to me. Don't people understand that even if states approve drilling that we won't get the gas right away??? It takes YEARS..why? BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO GET VOTES, HAVE THE MAKE PLANS ABOUT WHERE YOU ARE GOING TO PUT THE MONSTERS AND THEN YOU HAVE TO BUILD THE SOBS THEN YOU HAVE TO BUILD PIPELINES AND THEN MAKE REFINERIES THEN YOU HAVE TO REFINE THE OIL AND ITS NOT EVEN THAT MUCH!!!!!!!!! BLAH BLAH BLAH! And WHY DESTROY ENTIRE ECOSYSTEMS JUST SO WE CAN HAVE IT A LITTLE EASIER?!?!?!

OH! and don't even get me started on Dr. Evil (aka John McCain) that bastard needs to just f-off.

Thank you...have a nice day.

I think I'm going to get an iphone. Hopefully sooner...then later since now they're $200 instead of $500...sounds good to me!